no longer feel energized to step into office, physically charged but mentally drained. even spoke to the bosses that i felt demoralised and sian over the whole episode; its okay that things i do ain’t appreciated, its okay that colleagues take me for granted, its okay to pile so much work on me… but it’s not okay that you accuse me of something i didn’t do, and ultimate sadness is when the person who should understand me the most, don’t understand where i am coming from… disappointment is all is left…
I no longer know what i am fighting for and what i really want; feeling all dejected but no one i can speak and relate to… the more i complain at home, the more my mum feels bad for ‘forcing’ me into the job, personal friends don’t really understand what this stupid industry is all about, industry friends that u have to ‘guard’ and be extremely careful in your words…
its a passing phase of what i am feeling, but this cycle is getting shorter and shorter…
please give me the faith to believe, to find interest in what i am doing, to enjoy what i am doing…
